Unrequited.

i really hate being in situations where there's something in my grasp, but nature is working against me and not for me. i feel kind of defeated sometimes.. like i'm not doing enough from a distance with what i have.

*sigh*

i guess it's time i can embellish on mr. jeter.
he's moving back to michigan. i'm sad.

THE. END.

okay. i was totally kidding with that lol but seriously? he's worth the wait. it just would have been super selfish of me to have him stay in north carolina when he wasn't happy, and didn't have any family to back him up.

talking about him makes me happy and sad all at the same time, so i'm going to continue watching T.V. now lol

Untitled.

i'm in one of those moods where shit is happening too quick, and i have NO. IDEA. on how to cope with everything. it's nothing bad, but more along the lines of going through the motions of dealing with certain emotions.

it's not often i let things get to me, and once something does? it bugs the fuck out of me lol i don't dwell on anything, but reflection plays a large part in any decision i make. i think of short term longevity.. and what i mean by that is whatever i experience will always be apart of me, but i have a choice to put it in the back of my mind.

i've said this before, and i'll say it again..

there's a lot of shit i say that i don't really mean based on what i'm told. majority of the time? i'm being sarcastically facetious. i could be happy for you or i could be annoyed for knowing. shenanigans have been ensuing based on simple facts i don't need to know. it's irritating, because for one? i can't do the shit i'd like to handle the situation. i will take charge in a heartbeat. i hold my tongue and actions in place out of respect, and the information i already do know..

but what i do know? this crutch will be removed soon, but i have no clue why i still sort of need it for balance..

Summer 2010.

it's official.

i've been home for 2 weeks, and i'm a senior in college! all my grades were posted on banner, and i finally got my 90 hours. i've been behind 6 hours since i was a freshman for 3 semesters. that was the worst position i ever put myself in.. but i'm back on track to graduate on time!

SPRING 2011 ain't ready.. AIN'T. READY.

in the meantime, i'm going to enjoy my summer to it's full extent.. and with shenanigans in tow. i plan on doing a lot, but first i need to work on obtaining a cash flow. i got things to do and people to see.. especially mr. jeter and his sexy self, but that's another story =]