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i'm in one of those moods where shit is happening too quick, and i have NO. IDEA. on how to cope with everything. it's nothing bad, but more along the lines of going through the motions of dealing with certain emotions.

it's not often i let things get to me, and once something does? it bugs the fuck out of me lol i don't dwell on anything, but reflection plays a large part in any decision i make. i think of short term longevity.. and what i mean by that is whatever i experience will always be apart of me, but i have a choice to put it in the back of my mind.

i've said this before, and i'll say it again..

there's a lot of shit i say that i don't really mean based on what i'm told. majority of the time? i'm being sarcastically facetious. i could be happy for you or i could be annoyed for knowing. shenanigans have been ensuing based on simple facts i don't need to know. it's irritating, because for one? i can't do the shit i'd like to handle the situation. i will take charge in a heartbeat. i hold my tongue and actions in place out of respect, and the information i already do know..

but what i do know? this crutch will be removed soon, but i have no clue why i still sort of need it for balance..